It's all about sleeping lately.
I slept while on the bus 151 to school today.
And I banged my head countless time.
OUCH!
I slept during my first lecture.
And Winson said I really can sleep!
GOSH!
Did I snore or something?!
I almost fell asleep while on the way home while STANDING okay!
And I attempted to sleep while working...
PIG!
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Hmmmms....
I'm so tired.
Really tired.
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It's all about school, work and studies.
Sometimes I really think I'm pushing myself really hard.
I guess I just need to forget all the stuff that hurts.
The memories. The ones that walked away.
I wanna forget that I still miss him so much sometimes.
But I think it's all taking a toll on me.
Today.
I turned emo at work.
I felt so sad.
PMS I tell myself.
GOSH.

Boy...
)))))))))):
That's what I sms you today.
I guess you liked me cause I was strong in your eyes.
But what you saw was only an outer exterior.
I only choose who I let to see my weaker side.
You expected me to cry.
I just chose not to cry in front of you even though harsh facts were thrown right into my face.
You expect me to crumble. I just chose not to.

But he knew me.
Knew that I could pretend.
And pretend was the only thing I do best.
Even when things were wrong, I'd pretend that I'm fine.
But it was he who knew that I was pretending to be fine.
But you just agreed with me when I told you I'm a strong little girl and nothing's too tough for me.
I guess I was disappointed.
You said you'd be there when I needed someone.
Bullshit talking was all it was.

If I ever stray.
I'm sorry.
You pushed me to that state.
You made me feel alone when I wasn't supposed to feel that way.

To my friends.
If you're in a relationship, tell your other one...
That you appreciate their presence.
That they're there for you and for choosing to be with you and loving you.
It's all about appreciating.
If I had a chance...
I'd tell him that I really appreciate his presence.
I'd tell him that everytime I see him.
I guess lately I've learnt about appreciating what you have.

Andd I really appreciate my friend's concern.
Especially Kelly!
Thanks for putting up with my ranting last week.
Me and my rant-ness!
I won't be ranting so much anymore.
If you have anything to rant about...
Come to me okay. I'll be a SUPER GOOD LISTENER!
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Andd to the people who tried to put a smile on my face.
Thanks!
You know who you are!

Finally..
Sorry for the damn LAME entry.
But really... My mood is swinging damn badly.
And the person to suffer the consequences of it is my blog.
(: OOPS.

Andd..
To my secondary school friends!!!
Just to let you guys know something about:
KENNY POH ZE HUA...
He has quit his course in NP.
And today just went to report to army.
Won't be able to book out till around 3 weeks later.
He told me he didn't tell anyone... Not even his classmates.
So... just to update you guys about him...
((:
I wish him all the best!

Many loves,
MEIYUN
XOXOXO

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