UPDATE TIME!!!

29 December 2007
Went to work today.
It was fun.
Although it was tiring.
It was fruitful though!
I’m thinking about my COMMISSION!!!!
$$$$$$$$$$

Met up with weiyi and lunched together!
My appetite’s sorta back!!!
CHEERS!
I had a sudden craving of Shilin’s mee sua.
So we headed down to far east plaza.
And SURPRISE SURPRISE!!
GUESS WHO I SAW!!!
My ex-colleague!
Tom!
It was hilarious.
I thought I saw someone familiar at the counter!!
Then SURPRISE!
LOL.
It was a lovely surprise though!!

Had a funny argument with my colleague today!
His name is Lawrence.
Since my Chinese was horrible.
We were arguing about the words ‘shi lian’ and ‘fen shou’
My logic was nonsense.
His was VERY REASONABLE!
LOL.
But he made me laughed a lot.
And I teased him about his hair.
I asked him why he cut his hair.
Cause it looks so short (and little??!!) now.
And maybe he should style his hair the other way!

But I hated Steven.
The pervert and playboy and SUPER FLIRT person.
Everytime he comes near me.
I walk away.
And he asks why do I always walk away when he comes.
And I laughed out loud.
I wish he would stay away from me forever!!!!

Work ended and I hoped down to far east plaza.
To surprise Tom.
And SURPRISE SURPRISE!!
I saw
Kelvin too!!!
Haha.
We hanged out for a while.
Alongside with uncle Chai and this other guy.
We talked for a while before we headed our own ways.
A lovely and enlightening chat we had! (ahem! ahem!)

I miss him a lot.
I know I do.
At times I wanna sms to ask him what’s he doing.
But I have to stop myself.
Because I am in no position to ask.
It would be too much too fast.

But today I learned something.
All it ever takes is time.
I’m sure I can get over this.
It took me time to accept Zhixian into my life and to get used to his hugs.
So I believe.
That as time passes.
I will heal.
And when a right guy pass by.
I’ll also take time to get used to him and his hugs.
So I thought it through.
I know and believe that I can get over this.
If I can get over (ahem!!!!) then I can get over him too.
Time is all I need.

But for now.
I miss him a lot.
And I wished he was still part of my life.

Also.
I learnt today that you used to care.
And our memories we made.
No one can ever have them.
It only belonged to us.
At least it is one thing that we both share that no one else can ever have.
(: thank you. It touched me deeply.

Anyway.
SINGLE = MINGLE
Haha.
Someone taught me that! (ahem!)
I’ll make sure I live my life to the fullest.
Make it happening!
Full of activities.
Weee~~~~~
2008!!!
Here I come!!!

30 December 2007
Work was SUPER fun today!
Lots of laughter between me, Lawrence, Jia Wei and Mr Nice Guy.
I’ve been nicknamed ‘xiao ding dang(doreamon)’ by Lawrence.
He tells me I’m crazy!
And I live in my own dream world.
Cause I told him I can make him disappear!

Met Nelson during my lunch break.
Headed over to far east plaza AGAIN!
Cause I had a craving for XXL Crispy Chicken!
And next week I have to ‘da pao’ one packet back for Mr Nice Guy!
He tells me I’m crazy to travel to far east just to have lunch!
Bought 2 pieces of shirt too!
Thanks Nelson for the Oreo Ice Blend treat!
I fell in love with the drink!!

Met up with Kelly after work.
We walked around Wisma.
Then headed over to orchard cineleisure for a drink at burger king.
We talked and laughed .
Headed home around midnight.

Kelly says she wants to see me smile more!
(((((((((((((((((:
I think this is enough!
Am I smiling enough!!?? LOL
But I’ll definitely smile everyday without fail.
Nothing is going to get me down.
Even if I miss you so so much.

Had a mini quarrel with my mom.
All I can say is.
I hate my life sometimes.
My brother is definitely the favourite one.
Biased.
Oh well.
I’m a tough and strong girl.
I’m independent.
I pay my own bills for sure.
Unlike my pampered brother.
I work is to earn money to buy my own things.
Cause I know what I want, my parents can’t afford.
So I must work.
Unlike my brother.
My parents pay everything for him.
But me.
I want to buy shirt, I have to pay for myself.
This explains why I am so broke!!!
So I told my dad.
I just want more freedom and stop comparing me with some other people’s children.
It’s simply unfair.
Just like the way I tell him you it’s not fair to compare me with other girls.

I miss him.
I still do.
I look back at our memories.
And I just can’t accept the fact that the feelings gone.
But I’m doing fine.
I just really miss you.
I’m still smiling and laughing.
But I’m still missing you.
I wonder if you do… can we have another hug??
Sometimes I think it’ll hurt if I see you on the streets with another girl.
I can’t imagine you with another girl doing things we used to do.
I guess I can only imagine me being with you only.
Cause it only seems right that way.
But I’m going to try my best to move on.
PS I’m still not over you

I’m almost afraid to say this.
But Shir…
The rose you gave me.
It looks like its going to wilt/die soon!!??

A new year.
A new beginning.
And perhaps a new me.
More smiley, more cherry, more happy!!
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((:

31 December 2007
New Year’s Eve.
A lovely sms by Wei Lee.
He wanted to know if I had found anyone special to spend the New Year with.
Unfortunately NO.
I’ve no one.
Haha.
After exchanging some sms’es
He tells me it seems like I have gone through so much in the past week.
And I have matured in my thinking about bgr.
And that I’m no longer my bubbly self.
Oh well…
I still think I’m the same.
Meiyun is still Meiyun.
Everything stays the same.

Went to repair my phone today.
It costed me my time and sleep!
But on the bright side
My phone will be okay on Thursday.

Headed over to Vivo City.
Met up with Winson, Seok and Fran.
Had lunch at SHILIN again for me!!
It was a very funny experience that we shared! (winks!)
I had the rice box.
YUMMY.
My appetite is definitely back.
I’ve been feeling very hungry nowadays!
So feed me people!!!

Headed home early today.
No one special to spend the day with anyway.
Today I learnt that…
Men can be so fickle.
They can just easily dump you cause
Either the feelings are gone.
Or they’ve gotten tired of you.
Or they simply have no reason.
It sounds so sad.
It almost makes me afraid to love someone.

Today.
I really missed him a lot.
I just wanted to lock myself in my room
And just be alone.
I think my mum could tell I was upset.
I reached home.
And I looked super sad.
Not even a smile or laughter.
I just kept very very quiet.

Perhaps you might have somebody new.
I wouldn’t know.
But I hoped you didn’t lie to me.
When you told me you didn’t found anybody new.
Cause I trusted you.
But honestly speaking…
Have you gotten yourself someone new already?
Have you moved on from me already?
Do you still care for me?
Or do you not even care at all??
I wish I knew the answers to these questions…

I looked back at one year ago on this very day.
I remember spending last year’s New Year with
My two good friends Wei Lee and Jingjie.
Alongside with my cousin.
Last year.
It was fun.
There was a little alcohol.
I even saw someone that I wanted to see that day.
But this year.
No alcohol.
No fun.
Not even someone that I really wanted to see badly cause I missed him so much.
But I saw Andy though! LOL.

Through the crowd.
I skimmed through it.
Searching for someone.
But I can never find him anymore.

Let me reflect on my 2007 then…
Time sure passes so fast.
I’ve learnt so much.
I’ve learnt about the true meaning of love, friends and caring for someone.
It has definitely been 1 great year.
A year that has been filled with so many beautiful memories.
A year that I won’t ever forget or regret.
Well in 2008.
I hope it remains the same.
But perhaps more challenges!!
I wish for great things to happen to me in 2008!!!

1 January 2008
Met up with wei yi today.
We lunched at Subway.
I wanna declare that
I LOVE EATING AT SUBWAY!!!
The food is so yummy!!
Then we walked around Suntec City.
Headed back to bedok after that.
Hanged out at Long John Silver for a while.
Then we headed home.

Nothing much happen today.
Sighh.
I sms him to wish Happy New Year.
But I never heard anything back from him.
Maybe he doesn’t want to lead me on.
Or perhaps he finds me a irritating, annoying little girl.
I wonder whatever happened to our “lets remain friends”???
I wish he replied.
I’m still missing him so much.
I’m half waiting and half moving on.
Sometimes it just feels so lonely(wrong??) without him…
imisshim imisshim imisshim imisshim imisshim imisshim imisshim

Perhaps he has found someone else already.
But I don’t know.
But he tells me there was no one.
I still believe him.
Cause I want to and I trust his words.
But if there really is someone else.
I wanna know the truth.(if you think I’m hinting something, I am)
I know I will be able to take it.
Lately all I ever want is the truth.
Lately all I ever want is YOU too.

Thank you everybody for the well wishes.
Happy New Year to everyone.
May the coming year bring you guys happiness.
Enjoy the new year!

♥meiyun