My relationship with him(zhixian) is over.
As of today,
28 December 2008.
I have regained my single status.

I met him today at his house area.
We talked a lot.
Finally the truth was out.
The feelings were gone.
It was then a mutual decision to spilt up.
It’s probably best for us I guess.

It’s so hard to phrase everything now.
Yeah, sure I’m feeling horrible inside.
But I’ll be okay!
It feels so weird.
I used to have someone I could count on.
But now,
I can’t do anything.
I can’t call him as and when I want to.
I can’t message him all the time.
Everything’s restricted.

I miss him.
I know I do.
I won’t deny it.
I simply can’t believe it.
I can’t believe the fact that it’s all gone.
All I need is time I guess.
To heal.
But I’m OKAY!

Goodbyes can be sweet too.
The one we shared was sweet.
I’ll always remember it.
One I can’t forget.
To me it almost felt as if the ____________ meant something.
I felt your love, care and concern from the _______________
It made me really miss you so much.
Perhaps I was imagining it.

There are many things I have to let go.
The necklace is one particular one.
Tonight was the last time I can ever wear it on my neck.
Although I don’t want things to end this way.
But I guess there’s nothing I can do about it.

But I’ll be strong.
Life must go on no matter what.
Although I’m not in a very good shape right now,
I know I’ll be in great shape as time passes.
So I guess all I need is time.
I’m sure my appetite will come back soon enough. (((:

Special notes to my friends in alphabetical order:
Jane – thanks for your comfort.
Nelson – thanks for your concern!
Shirleen – thanks for the rose and the hugs! I’ll be fine. Thanks for coming out today.
Wan Ying – thanks for your “sayang”.
Wei Yi – thanks for listening to my endless complaining and letting me box you.
Willson – thanks for the advice. Don’t worry, I won’t be doing anything silly. I’ve grown up so much.
Winson – my big brother! Thank you for looking out for me. I’m counting on you to take care of me when school starts. I don’t know how I’ll be by then. Maybe better maybe same.

To my Mum…
Although I got a mini scolding from you.
I know you mean well.

To him…
I wish you all the best in the year 2008
May you be blessed with happiness, love and peace in the new year.
And may you find someone you truly love.
And yes… we’ll still remain very good friends.
Lastly, thank you for everything you have done for me.

Oh wells….
Moving on to happier stuff.
Met up with wei yi and shir today.
We had so much fun.
We laughed.
And played it up for the cameras too.
We talked too.
The tears never dropped though.
Cause I’m tough!

There’s work tomorrow.
At Ngee Ann City.
Best Denki
Level 5
Under Panasonic table lamps.
Dear friends…
Do visit!
Between 12.30pm to 9.30pm
It’ll make my day!

I’ll stop here for today.
((((((((((((((((((:
Don’t worry friends…
I’m fine.
I’ve been through this before.
I can pick myself up.
I know I can go through this period of tough time.

With lots of love
Meiyun
xoxoxo

I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you.
If only you knew. I’ll try to be strong. I’ll not contact you. I’ll let time pass by before contacting you. I still want us to be friends. Somehow I just refuse to believe that your feelings for me could just disappear around Christmas. Why did your hug felt as if there was still love, care and concern towards me? I just can’t believe. But all has dawned to me that you and me are no longer lovers anymore. I’m glad we had that one last hug. It makes our goodbye so much sweeter. I still love you so much and there will always be a place for you in my heart for now. I miss you greatly and deeply. And I will still want you to have the best. Cause that’s what love really is to me. Wanting your loved one to have the best. Perhaps deep in my heart, I wish we can get back together. I still believe and have faith in us. I really still think you’re the one for me. Tonight I will probably be crying my heart out. Xian, all the best to you. With lots of love from me. xoxoxo