just came back from work...
not in a good mood...
i screwed up very badly....

one thing i dun understand...
why am i sneaking around with you??
why?? why?? why?? WHY???????????
why can't i just tell the whole world i'm with you??
why must i hide from her...???
why must i protect you....??????
why can't i be just carefree with you??
why did she come to my workplace today???????
why????????????? WHY??????????????
why can't she just let me off????????????
WHY????????????? ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH....

i'm sorry i lied to you...
i didn't mean it....
i just didn't want to get you in any more trouble...
it's me that she wants....
i'll be strong.
i dun want you to get hurt cause of me....
why do i even bother... you don't even know my blog address....?? WHY??
i dun wanna hide around...
i wanna be able to post pictures of you and me without having to think of who's gonna see it....
tell me WHY LIKE THAT DE.......... I'M VERY UPSET NOW!!!!!
I WANNA CRY LE............ ARGHHHH..........
I'M DAMN PISSED WITH MYSELF....... =(

to huifen....
i'm sorry i haven't told you the truth either.....
really so sorry.....................................................

maybe tomorrow will be a better day...
for now.... i'm better off dead then alive....
i dun care if anyone reads my blog and thinks i'm mad...
cause i already am............