i'm so exhausted from all the crying.
last night my eyes were all red. and i had so little sleep.

today went to school as usual.
then went to meet my dear around 1++
we went to study till 2++
then went to his house. his mother really very pretty!!
then me and my dear talked a bit.
talked about our problems.

but.... on the bus home.
everything went wrong again.
it's fine if you want me to shower quick when i reach home.
but on the bus, you shake my arm so violently that it hurts.
then you said my arm was FATS lah.
what the hell.....
how could you be so unsensitive......

when we reached the bus stop.
i practically ignored him.
when i reached my room, i started eating my dinner.
then i cried while eating lor.
luckily wei lee was messaging me.
so he kinda comforted me.
then i no appetite so i just ate the vegetables.
went to shower then went to school immediately.

met kelly to walk to school together.
on the way, saw nelson.
we went to 85 there to eat dinner with joel.
before we left, saw sk, chin hui and frieda.
then we had to walk all the way to front gate to school.
i acted like i was drunk. haha.
walk till so fast and so bouncy.
i had energy all of a sudden.

i hope what wei lee said wasn't true.
i have been defending you all along.
but now, i let them say what they want to say and i won't bother to defend you.
it's pointless.
everytime something good was going on, something bad was always waiting for us later.
maybe i really am FAT.
maybe i am never good enough for you either.
can't you respect me....?? when i say no, please leave it that way.

you cared for me so much but i can only gaze at you from afar. you were always there to brighten up my gloomy day.

*thanks Wei Lee for trying to make my day better.
** thanks Kelly, Nelson and Joel. you made me forget about some stuff temporarily....