i woke up on the wrong side of bed today.
but it's kinda impossible huh.
since the other side is a wall!! haha

i really feel damn pissed today.
i can feel she's giving me attitude too.
i felt very pissed. aargh...
made me no mood to do anything today.
except to be pissed and grumble!!
maybe it's my english.
too chim for anyone to understand.

because of that, i whole day very no mood.
just wanted to be alone.
it kinda just pulled me down.
after that happened,
i feel like i have lost all my strength, hope, faith.

really almost felt like giving up.
i know i shouldn't be thinking that way.
but with the way things are,
i really wonder...
why won't someone just shoot me in the head??!!
i really didn't feel like living... aargh.

it was at that time,
i really feel grateful for tomorrow.
at least i know my friends will be there for me.
maybe i'll be happier tomorrow...

i seen my dear's mother.
i think she looks gorgeous!!
very classy.
unlike me.
so retarded and silly.
i feel ugly just looking at her...

sighh.
everything seems to be going wrong.
nothing seems right anymore.
oh man, i feel bad thinking this way...
today, i realized that the past is still the best.
the previous are always better.
i tried to forget.
but screw it man.
i see you 5 days a week.
how the hell can i not think about you??!!!
why can't you just disappear??
or just sit in a corner of the class.
that way things will be so much easier for me.
everytime i think you are gone, you appear in my rearview mirror.
i feel awful.
i feel like a HORRIBLE PERSON!!

[[today i hate myself the most]]