i met him for lunch today. but i hardly ate. haha. it was nice. i know where he lives. somewhere in tampines. i can take a direct bus there. sometimes, i am tired of hiding. i wish to let him know about my blog... but the stuff here are way too private for him to know... maybe i should just heck care lah... what to do leh???

today i was reminded of the past a lot... hurt a little but mostly it makes me smile and giggle a little... so retarded huh!!?? i think i have truly broken free from him.... i think i looked like an idiot when i was out with him.... smiling for no reason... i thought of the past....

i want to be with him... but it seems like impossible at the stage we are going at... he treats me real nice. a kind of gentleman i have never seen before... he's something different from the rest. i guess i don't wanna just be his friend. i want to be something more. something that has a title to go with it. sighh. but it seems like it will never happen... :(
can i wait patiently??
or will i run out of hope??
or will i find it tough and just give up??
maybe i should be a 100% nerd!! haha

my brother is treating me kinda nice lately. i like that. today he told me "going out... later mummy scold again..." i guess he knows who i am out with. it's like he's saying "come home early ah..." it nice to know he cares a little for his little sister... :D

tomorrow's the BIG day!!! results for O lvl mother tongue!!! everybody, let's pray for the best!!
so hard to write my blog when my mom is trying to peek!! haha... i'm so secretive!!! lol

[[it's time for me to open up the truth. no more hiding]]