I FEEL EMO!
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Last night.
I cried.

Just some random thoughts.
Random memories.
Random feelings.
Everything's random.

When things happen...
Who do you count on?
Best friends?
Good buddies?
Family?
Think you know who to count on..
Think again.

Sometimes.
Even in the brightest world.
One might still feel very very alone.
That's how I feel I guess.

All along..
I thought...
Oh...
Never mind.
Who bothers anyway.

Things never get easier as it comes.
It only gets more complicated.
More tougher.
All the talk about life being easy as it passes.
It's all crap.
All a practiced line from a script.

What I feel.
Is a new feeling.
I don't what it is.
But it's screwing me up.
And I don't know who is there for me.

I hate this annoying feeling in my heart.
I hate me.

GOODBYE.

<3 meiyun

Happy Chinese New Year.
(:

1st day of CNY.

My dad offered me beer.

And my uncle toasted to me.

Wishing me good luck this year.

Weird...!

My heart feels heavy..

(:

Was it because I was reminded of the unhappy past?

Or was it beacuse I know that

whatever I said came from my heart?

Something that I usually never admitted.

It feels weird.

It made me sad.

To hear myself admit those stuff.

It made me realize what kind of a person I really am.

My heart just feels so...

Heavy.

For the first time.

My heart pounded like I was about to pass out soon.

And when I walked away.

It felt heavy.

The truth hurts.

The past hurts.

But we all move on, don't we?

Where does this leave me?

Back to square one I suppose.

I need to be left alone.

I haven't felt like this in ages.

It feels like I have lost someone.

Like the night of 28 June 2007.

The night when I felt true heartache.

[[...Gotta talk to you now before we go to sleep

But will we sleep once I tell you what's hurting me

-I hate this part by The Pussycat Dolls...]]

A day before CNY and I'm sick.
(:

Wish me luck.
I feel like dying already.
(:

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I Hate This Part

We're driving slow
Through the snow
On fifth avenue
And right now radio's
All that we can hear

Now we ain't talked since we left
It's so overdue
It's cold outside
But between us its worse in here

The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part
Where the end starts

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through my fingers

I don't want to try now
All that's lefts goodbye to
Find a way that I can tell you

I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take your tears
I hate this part right here

Everyday seven takes of the same old scene
Seems we're bound by the laws of the same routine
Gotta talk to you now fore we go to sleep
But will we sleep once I tell you what's hurting me

The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know (i know) this is (this is) the part where the end starts

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through my fingers

I don't want to try now
All that's lefts goodbye to
Find a way that I can tell you

I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take your tears
I hate this part right here

I know you'll ask me to hold on
And carry on like nothings wrong
But there is no more time for lies
Cause I see sunset in your eyes

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers

I don't want to try now
All that's lefts goodbye to
Find a way that I can tell you

But I gotta do it
I gotta do it
I gotta do it
I hate this part

I gotta do it
I gotta do it
I gotta do it

Oh
I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take these tears
I hate this part right here

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Work today was alright.
(:

On a small note.
My heart feels so weird today.
I'm torn within.

Alrights.
Bye.

<3 meiyun